User blog comment:Moonwing9/I don’t know if I can handle it anymore.../@comment-37858312-20200117023850

Dear Moonwing,

I am so, so sorry for your pain. I can see that you are in a dark place right now, and have been there before as well. I can’t claim to know how you feel, because each person’s pain is different, but mark my words. You will find light. Because you are a good, bubbly person who is kind and witty. Your 'friends' aren't friends if they hate you like that, and your brother has no right to treat you in any way, shape or form, that makes you feel worthless. Why? Because you aren't worthless, you are nothing close to worthless. And even if you can't see it, so many people care about you.

I've been there, in that dark corner, and I'm still there, wondering when I will wake up from this nightmare that I call life. Suicide may feel like what many people want for you, but only awful people would want to put people down to that extent. Talk to your parents for sure---explain calmy, in detail, what you've been feeling and what's happening to you. You might be sure that they don't care, but you'll likely be pleasantly surprised. And if not, find someone, anyone, a school counselor, to tell what is happening. It'll be hard. Maybe you'll be too afraid of what will happen after you tell people, if your life is going to change, if it'll be a war. Don't let that stop you. Because only by changing up your lifestyle, you can find what you seek. Please don't give up. I know that I cannot reach you, that I cannot come and explain just how much I feel for you. I can't ease your pain, or take away what's happening.

But I can wish you love, happiness, light, joy—and a future worth waiting for.

Aira